urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:faeriedustbekki faeriedustbekka faeriedustbekka 2007-04-17T10:31:06Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:faeriedustbekki:782 2007-04-17T10:31:06Z 2007-04-17T10:31:06Z some random stuff <p><font size="2"><em>recent events, leaving my sleeping patterns and energy levels all over the place...&nbsp;<br /><br />i am said to be immature and supposedly i do stuff to impress my friends!!<br />im pathetic!<br />a liar!<br />and supposedly im gunna lose all my friends!! there gunna abandon me?!<br /><br />for one... ive always been a pretty mature person for my age!&nbsp;<br />secondly ... why should i do stuff to impress my friends??<br />thirdly... i dont understand how i can be pathetic when i have a certain one person hack into my myspace to read my messages and lie pathetic amounts over silly stuff!<br />fourthly... im supposedly a liar.. i dont think i ever really properly lied to anyone.. maybe the little white lies about surprise parties and maybe what pressi someone else got someone for christmas or a birthday!<br />and finally... i have some very very good friends and i cant see them abandoning me... and i have plenty of friends so why would ALL of them have a reason to abandon me!<br /><br />anyways... recent events have been hard, im not denying that... i know i made them but how can someone go on not feeling happy and not feeling themselves?! ... i dont think its possible... well ... if i did my life wouldnt be worth anything, i wouldnt enjoy myself, i would end up being a lonely sad old woman!!<br /><br />i feel im gunna be happier in the long run... which is a good thing isnt it?<br /><br />at the moment i feel like curling up for a few years till everythings blown over! ... but assessments blooming... there on monday!<br /><br />i have shit loads of work to do! ... painting sketchbook... photography... lots of random bits for that... my film needs more editing... 3 drawing projects need finishing and a sketchbook for that too!! ...<br /><br />do you think i'll get em done! as well as working 4/5 times this week!!?!<br /><br />anyways... lots of love&nbsp;<br />x X x&nbsp;<br /><br /></em></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:faeriedustbekki:558 2007-04-10T21:06:36Z 2007-04-10T21:06:36Z the silent hum of a pc and quiet purring of the kinkster! <p><font color="#800080" size="2">i dunno what to say really.... but this is prob a good way of actually talking (with noone telling me im lieing or saying stuff to show off to my mates!(god that sounds so immature - but that didnt come from my mouth!)) about stuff....<br /><br />i havent got the energy to talk about stuff now!<br /><br />love x X x </font></p>